I recently got back in touch with my first love from high school…. We have been talking for about 4 months .. I enjoy having himback in my life, we are trying to establish what our boundaries are right now and its been a little confusing for me.. So, I had a dream about him and I was looking all over for him and I went to his mom and asked her where he was and she said honey he committed suicide and I just kept crying in my dream and saying but I cant find him, where is he? First of all his mother is in a nursing home and has had alzhiemers for 5 years in real life.. so that kinda freaked me out then the fact that she was telling me he died and I just wouldn’t stop telling her I couldn’t find him… What does that all mean?? Can someone help me with this??? It really scares me cause I don’t get it at all and why on earth would I dream he killed hisself.. I did have a discussion with him a few weeks back and told him he seemed different from the guy I loved back in school and that I was not sure how I felt about him the way he is now…maybe that has something to do with it…
The dream would appear to be a reflection of your feelings about this former lover or high-school sweetheart having changed in ways that you perceive to be negative. Seeing him again was clearly a disappointment in some way.
This old flame committing suicide in the dream is a symbol for your projection of him making failed choices in his life. He changed who he is and you don’t like it. He symbolically “killed” who he was or who you knew him to be.